Well, i cant say i wasent warned, molly is still a bitch and a half. She is up to her same old games, making plans with me then blowing me off to go hang out with her other slut friends, just as soon I belived she changed she went back to her old ways. liek tonight her invites me over and as soon as i get there her firned Amanda calls and she makes plans to go out with her when i am right there and doesnt invite me along. I would think she would have more gratitude to me cause i helped her out and was there for her when her ex beat the shit out of her, I am starting to understand why he did it. so when i was leaving i grabed my PS2 and all my tools i was using to clean up their house and took them home, i am done with it and dont wantot ever deal with it again, i cant belive i was so stupid to fall back for her. Anyways, i droped out of SWFC lastnight, they put me through so many hoops and i just lost all interest in computers. but i enrolled at Edison Comm. College for the Radiology Technician program, that should be interesting, I'll be performing procedures such as MRIs, CAT Scans, X-ray, UltraSounds, and all the other fun stuff like that. hey, i have the experence reciving MRIs and CAT scans, so might as well give them now, LOL. My trip to WA went pretty good, i have tons of pictures posted on my website, it was freaking cold as the icey pits of a witches tit. but i stil lhad a a great time, i got to see my old buddy Evin again, i hung out with my sister Melissa alot, she took me out to all the bars down town christmas day after the whole family thing, then took me again on my birthday, i was soooo wasted. oh yea,h and i got my digital camera this year. WooHoo, i love it!

Yay! finally, i am leaving, WooHoo! i get a vacation from this hell hole called Florida, LOL, well i cant completely call it a hell anymore, things are starting to finally fall into place for me. But anyway,s I leave tomrrow (thursday) to go back to Washington to visit frienbds and family, i really miss them all, i havent seen my parents since last x-mas, and havent seen the rest of my firends for over 2 1/2 years, i have so manplans i dont know if i wil lhave enough  time do do everything i wanted to do, but the time up there will be nice, anyways, i have to get to bed now, i am goign to work 1.2 day in the morning, and i am getting paid for the full 8 hours :D so that will be nicew to have the little extra cash. so if anyones cares, here is my itinerary

US Airways 5963
Depart	Thu., Dec. 23, 2004	Fort Myers, FL - U.S. (RSW)	02:02 pm
Arrive	Thu., Dec. 23, 2004	Chicago, IL - U.S. (ORD)	04:09 pm
Seat	15A
Aircraft	733 - Boeing 737-300

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>> Connection: 1 hr :41 mins>>

	US Airways 6120
	Depart	Thu., Dec. 23, 2004	Chicago, IL - U.S. (ORD)	05:50 pm
	Arrive	Thu., Dec. 23, 2004	Denver, CO - U.S. (DEN)	07:27 pm
	Seat	19A
	Aircraft	752 - Boeing 757-200

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>> Connection: 43 mins>>

	US Airways 6421
	Depart	Thu., Dec. 23, 2004	Denver, CO - U.S. (DEN)	08:10 pm
	Arrive	Thu., Dec. 23, 2004	Spokane, WA - U.S. (GEG)	09:33 pm
	Seat	14A
	Aircraft	733 - Boeing 737-300

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	US Airways 6442
	Depart	Sun., Jan. 2, 2005	Spokane, WA - U.S. (GEG)	06:00 am
	Arrive	Sun., Jan. 2, 2005	Denver, CO - U.S. (DEN)	09:10 am
	Seat	12A
	Aircraft	733 - Boeing 737-300

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>> Connection: 1 hr :9 mins>>

	US Airways 6386
	Depart	Sun., Jan. 2, 2005	Denver, CO - U.S. (DEN)	10:19 am
	Arrive	Sun., Jan. 2, 2005	Charlotte, NC - U.S. (CLT)	03:21 pm
	Seat	N/A
	Aircraft	733 - Boeing 737-300

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>> Connection: 44 mins>>

	US Airways 317
	Depart	Sun., Jan. 2, 2005	Charlotte, NC - U.S. (CLT)	04:05 pm
	Arrive	Sun., Jan. 2, 2005	Fort Myers, FL - U.S. (RSW)	05:54 pm
	Seat	10A
	Aircraft	734 - Boeing 737

I'll have access to my e-mal, so fell free to drop me an e-mail and i'll check atl weast once a night, Merry Christmans and Happy new year to all. I'll see you all when i get home.

Well, i have to say, "Troy is an ass", for many reasons. First of all, the other day at work near the end of the day Troy and i were finishing up a job on the cheshire machine, and when the last piece rolled off the machine, without saying a work he just ups and leaves to go up from cause it was 10 till 4. so he leave me in the back to finish putting the magazines in sacks and to clean the machine and the area around whre we were working. the worst thing about that that pisses me off is an hour earlier he was lecturing me abotu team work and there is not enough team work there, "think abotu it Troy, thats NOT team workling leaving me to clean up and not even offering to help" then he comes back 5 minutes later, and because i told him that Molly broke it off with her financee he asked for her number, i heasitated at first but gave it to her cause i know they used to be firends when her and i were dating. so as soon as he gets out of the building he calls her and invites her over and wants to hook up with her. "Okay Troy", you dont take advantage of a person like that in a vurable stage like that. but she caught on to his little game and has been rejecting him everytime "good job Molly". but anyways, Troy is just an ass, he has always seemed that way to me, but i just blew ignored it causei kind of liked sometihng in him, but no more. Anyways, life is going good, I am probably going to be able to keep this job through April-May, and hopfully i cna prove to Jim that he should hire me on full time. Which so far, thngs are looking good, so lets keep our fingers crossed cause i really do liek working there and I like everyone there. Anyways, Bed tim for me. Goodnight Everyone.

Yeah I know I haven’t write in here for a long time, I have been really busy, I have just had a lot of stuff going on in my life the past few months between school, work, or the lack of work, I just wanted to get a lot off my chest and out of my mind. I have been working my neighbor Art doing some tree trimming and other yard maintenance.  I know its doesn’t sound like the most glamour job, but its working to pay the bills and I am learning a few things.  I am about to go out and start doing some side work, I have all the tools I need, a chainsaw, hedge trimmers, loppers, a rake and a shovel.

 

But anyways, this had been an absolutely fabulous fucking weekend, I got stood up AGAIN! This is turning into a weekly thing for me, what the hell is up with that?  The story behind that is there has been this girl Nikki I meet on Yahoo and I have been talking to online and on the phone for the past 2 or 3 weeks, so Friday night we were talking to on the phone planning a date, figured we were going to go to Iguana Mias have dinner and a drink then come back here and watch a movie, so I told her I needed to go get a shower and get changed then I would call her back when I was ready so when I was ready and dressed I called her, and no answer, so I waited about 15 minutes thinking she might have still been in the shower I called her back and left a message then in another hour I called her back and still no answer so I left another message asking were she was and if we were still going out that night  but never hear anything back. I have had so many dating problems in the past few months, and this kind of shit almost makes me want to give up dating, or my attempt to date.

 

Well last week, or actually two weeks ago Lita and I went to Busch Gardens Howl-o-scream, and we had a great time.  We went through almost all the haunted houses there, except for one of them, anyways it was rated as one of the least scary houses, so probably no big lose. The lines where horrendous there, we waited for at least an hour to go through one of the houses, but it was worth the wait once we got to the house. All-in-all I had a really good time, the drive up there was nice, Lita and I talked about a lot of stuff and got to know each other more, and we stopped and had a good dinner and a glass of wine at Olive Garden. 

 

All of you "Life of Tony" blog readers who remember Brandy, well she is no more now, we are not even talking at all. We had a major fall out last week. It’s a really complicated story where I was stupid on my end as well. What triggered the whole thing is that her and a few of her friends went to Orlando last week to go to some of the clubs up there. So when she got home and we talked I was asking her about it and if she had a good time, and she naturally said she did, so further into the conversation when she was telling me about it she mentioned sleeping with some guy, so I asked if she meant sleeping, or sleeping as in having sex. She said it was only sleeping as in sleeping with him. We got into a little bit of a argument about it, mainly cause it was so hard to get it out of her, I didn’t mind that she slept with him, but that she was being so secretive about it with me. Hell at once we where best friends that could talk about almost anything to.  Which that lead to more ageing and some not so nice words where exchanged between us, then she decided she didn’t want to talk to me anymore, never again. I have tired to message her just to talk but she still didn’t want to talk, I even IMed her tonight when she got home from Busch Gardens asking her how that was but all she said to me was "Tony, don’t you remember, I'm no talking to you anymore" then signed out.  I am finally starting to realize that might be for the best, she wasn’t all that "great", yeah she was nice at sometimes, but we didn’t have anything in common, didn’t like the same foods, or music, she didn’t like any sports, and she complained about everything that she didn’t like, not just like my little pity whining, but she actually complained, didn’t think anything was her fault and that she was always right about everything, all brandy is, is a spoiled brat who dubs herself "princess".  From this point on I am never going to data another girl that dubs her self-princess cause I have don’t that before with Molly.  But hey, don’t get me wrong; molly actually was a good woman for me at the time when things were going well.

 

Just to those who don’t know much or anything about Molly let me just give you a brief history on the two of us.  I meet her when I first moved down her to Florida, I actually meet her online few weeks before I moved and we got along great, we talked every night and agreed when I get down here we were going to meet and see if we meshed well together.  So the 2nd night when I got down here we met at Hustlers pool hall. We were both kind of shy with each other, just cause it was the first time meeting her and for her meeting me.  But as the game went on we talked some more and started to warm up to each other, so the first date was very successful ;)  We went on a few more dates later on until we diced to start call ourselves a couple. She got to meet my dad when we first came down her, and I even got his approval on this one, which was a first, mainly because of my last girlfriend before that Kit, which will be covered later on in this entree.  Anyway getting back to the story, she meet my sister Amy and brother in law Nick, and my nephew Ian and Dylan.  My whole family loved her, her and Amy became friends; she even got to baby-sit for the boys if I had to work that day or night. When I moved into my first apt. She was there with me on my first night in the new pad, and helped me drink my house-warming gift, a bottle of Bacardi Rum. As the time went along we were doing everything together, going out almost every night, going to either her place or coming over here to watch a movie, went fishing, smoked pot, got drunk a lot too, and went to Islands of Adventure in Orlando, just a good time. After about 7 months of us dating I wanted to take the next step in our relationship and I asked her to move in with me if I got a bigger apt. she was more then happy to come live with me. About a month later the apt. I am in right now opened up after Tom got kicked out and I jumped right onto it.  So I moved all my stuff over here and was ready for Molly to move in with me, I knew it wasn’t going to be an immediate thing, we were going to ease into it. But about that time is when things started to turn south for us, that was about the time she started to hang around Daisy and Anthony, and Harry, a few Puerto Ricans that she meet while working at Hollywood video, I didn’t mind her hanging out with them at all until she started to cancel on me a lot to hang out with them. I just bit my toung and got over it, ten Anthony started to visit her at work a lot, bringing her flowers, taking her out, moving in on her. The one thing that busted the bubble and made all hell break lose was one night I was helping her out at Hollywood video, I was sorting out movies with one of her co-working, I cant even remember her name now, but she called her over and told her not to talk to me cause she thought that I was attracted to her, which she was a very cute girl and she was flirting with me, nothing serious but just playful flirting with no harm intended. So anyways he comes in with a bushel of flowers for her and when the little bastard gave her the flowers he gave her a kiss, and that was it! I walked up to him in the middle of Hollywood video and pushed him away from her knocking him to the ground and told him to get the fuck out or my face and get his face the fuck off of Molly's face.  He ran out the doors and I stayed to ask molly what the hell was up with that, she came up with some bullshit answers and I just left the store. And guess who was waiting for me outside, Anthony was, and he had a knife in his hand, when he rouse his hand into the air my only reflex was to his wrist knocking the knife out of his hand so he ran away, and that was really the last time I have seen him. So the shit flew between us for a week or so until I finally had enough and told her this wasn’t working out, figure out what you want, correct it, and then call me. Needless to say I didn’t hear from her again for another 6 months. At that time Brandy and I just broke up as b/f-g/f, After a night of drinking we talked about a lot of stuff, she admitted to me that she took advantage of me and was sorry about everything with Anthony and all the other thing she did to me. But my biggest downfall at the time witch I am over now got to the best of me and I forgave her, shortly after wards we wanted to give the relationship another try. But things just didn’t feel the same, we didn’t have that soark we used to have, and her trend of her standing me up for another friend, mainly Heather continued. I just figured it really wasn’t worth it anymore and I would move on cause I know if I continued to date her this would only happen more and more, and I would be hurt every time by her. I still find myself thinking about her here and there, just thinking "What if?” but that chapter in my life is now closed.

 

I have had some serious problems with relationships in the past, my worst mistake in relationships was Kit, *sigh* that was my first serious relationship, I really don’t have much to say about her but her parents were crack heads, literally were crack heads, they had a lower standard of living, and just everything was not right with it. She was the most ungrateful person, after she got kicked out of her parents house my mom and dad took her in till she finished high school, took car of her, gave her a bed to sleep in, a hot meal on the table everyday and a healthy family lifestyle. For some reason she didn’t like it there so her and I decided to move into a small apartment. My family was sort of supportive of my moving out, but not the part of my moving in with her.  Everything went well for the first few months that we lived there, she had a full time job at Carl's jr. and I had my full time management job at Taco Bell.  So one night I had a surprise when I came home one night, she sister Jamie, her in-law-in-law Jeff and their 4 kids got evicted fro there house and she invited them to move in with her, without consulting me first, I wanted nothing to do with that situation, but finally she convinced me to agree to let them stay for a month till they found their own apt. None of them worked, the kids where a Hugh mess, more messy then normal kids, I needed up cleaning up after them for at least an hour everyday.  One day I just diced I had enough, everyone was gone so I barowed my dads truck and loaded it up and got the hell out of there, i know it was a shitty thing for me to do, but thats the only way i saw my self getting out of that sistuation. things where over and done with with Kit, but after moving away i Jaime and jeff wer eproud of me for getting way from kit cause they knew how big of a bitch she was to me and i would acasinaly go visit them at the old apt. but hanging out with Jeff got me into some more trouble in my life, more then i bargined for, thats when i was intrduces to my new friend, Crystal Methamphedamine.

 

For a person who had ever done any drug knows it can be a roller coaster of emotions, feeling ans sences with high, I think in the 2 years that i was hooked i raised to the highest peaks and dropped to the lowest flows in my feelings and emotions. It started out as jsut a weekly thing with us, we would get high and stay up all night long. but as any drug addiction goes it will always start out that way, once a weke turned into twice a week, staying up for 2 nights in a row then 3 nights. things really started to become a problem when i met Jason, al ittle punk wanna be drug dealer, he always gave me good deals and never ripped me off so thats why i kept giving him my business. after a few months of smoking it to myself i found out i couldent support my habbit anymore and i needed to do something about it, so i started buying in bulk and selling it top pay for my habbits, i had more so naturally i did more untill i was a point where i was smoking and 8 ball a day of meth (thats about 3.5 grams or $160 worth) a day. Eventually my habbit got to me and i got carried away with it, staying up for 28 day stright with no sleep realyl wears on a person and his mind. I serioulsy started to see things that werent there, i saw shadows in the wall where nothing was there to creat it, things moving, hearing sounds like a door opening and sometime i felt someone touching my shoulder but when i turned around there was no one there. stil lthe wirest thing that still baffels me is one day jeff and i were cleaning outthe stroage room to make into a party room we both heard someone call his name really softly and we both looked at eachother thinking that the other said it but neither of us said a word. One night i got home from parting for a week long binge, i walked in the back door and my parents where there waiting on me to come home so they could confront me, when we sat my down in the kitchen and started to give me the 3rd degree about what i was doing and that they knew what i was dont and for how long, my head started to spin and i started to feel disey, i dident want anyone to know i was feeling that way so i got up and started walking towards my bedroom. I only took 3 or 4 steps until i collapsed on the kitchen floor, nextthink i knew i has 3 peramtics above me with machiones hooked up to me. I had overdose that night. That night i had relized that is was more then jsut a problem for me but a seroius issue that i know i had to fix now. some time went by with fighting this addiction and on Mothers day of 2002 is when i was ready to try something that was recommended to me. I agreed to go into a rehabilitation center to recive more help.

 

When i entered Sundows M Ranch rehbilitation center in Yakima Washington i dident know what to think of it, this was a whole new enviroemt, i wasent sure of what to expect, i wasent sure of who i would meet and the incounteres that i would have with the counclers and other patients. but they made me feel at home there at the ranch. i recived plently of help and councling for my addictions and i meet a few good people that i was able to relate with well. Everyone there all had one common denaminator, an addiction, wheather it was for Drugs, pot, or alcohol and they issues of those substances where not there to creat an issue. After 28 day at the ranch i graduated and had no intent on using meth ever again in my life, i think what really helped was removing myself from that inviroment. When i got home my sisters Amy had a proposal for me, ifi couldstay clean from i could come down and stay with them for the summer down here in Florida and i would have to watch my nephews over the summer while there where at work.

 

Well that is a breif history of a paort of my life and the way how I came to Florida, I will be writing more in here more, I know this may have been kind of boring and I doubt anyone is really going to read this to this far atleast, but if you have made it this far stay tuned for more on the life of Tony, so drop me a line and let me know what you think. TTFN

whew, finaly a night out of the house that is not work, i got out tonight. Brandy and I meet up again tonight in hopes to see a movie but that dident happen cause we jsut missed all the starts of the good movies and the next showing where going to be way too late for the both of us, they all started at around 9:50 so by the time the movie got out and we got home it would 12:30 - 1 AM and we both have to get op hella early. So we just ended up going to taste of new your and getting pizza, which is kind of ironic in a way cause i work at Papa Johns, LOL.  I accidentlky ordered a pizza that was way to big got us, i think itr was a large when i ment a medium, not sure if he mis understood me or i said the wrong thing, but i think i ordered the large... oh well just babbling. After dinner we headed over to wal*mart for awhile jsut to browse around, and i forgot the two things i was looking for, glow in the darks stars and a small pad lock for my bed room. Brandy bought a few DVDsa and i think that was it. But yeah, i have a really cool idea for my room with th e stars, i am going t\get alot of them and put the on my walls, celing, computer, and every where else i can. I am going to make some lthe constilations like the dippers, orians belt and others, but i am going to try to map them outand put them up accourding to the map with north east south and west. so that will be a good project for me one day when i am really bored... which dosent look like that wil lhappend anytime soon with working these jobs.  I was supposed to go to class tonight but i wanted to hang out with brandy tonight cause i havent seen her forever (dont hate me Brandy) lmao. but i also fell kind bad cause i told Lita i would see her at school (sorry Lita if you read this lmao).  oh yeah, ,i meet a girl at school last week, her name is Lita, she is in the graphic design program, she acuallty walked in graduation but stil lhas 3 more classes to take before completing her degree, but we have class on both Thursday and Saturday same times, we drive the same 1996 oldsmoble achiva, same color and everything, have pretty much the same taste in music. Nothing serious, she is a few years older then i am and a few other things, but she seem pretty cool so far. she lives close by out here in the cape so she asked me if i wanted to go bike riding with her. The jobs are going okay, so far this delivery job is working out pretty good, been making mad tips. I made over $38 in tips alone tonight in a less then 4 hour period. i should have made more but this one guys dident even give me a tip and he had a $23 order and i had to drive way out in Bum fuck NorthEast cape coral (about a 15-20 minute drive and he lived in this hugh ass house.... Grrr i hate these old people who are stingy with there money... come on, if you are going to spend 23 on pizzas you can afford to tip the drive at least 3 or 4 bucks.... that seems to be the average tip. the painting job is going okay too, i had to quit early today cause it was just too hot and i was felling it too, i got al ittle red on my back and arms but i not burnt, but i still have 2 more days to work on this place. well i guess thats about it for now. I hav eto go to bed now but i will update newxt time i have free time.   

I know i havent wrote in here for a long ass time, sorry everyone. i realyl havent had all that much to post here buit i guess i will catch up up with the past month. Well i finally got a real job today at papa johns pizza as delevery driver, not too sure how that is going to work out because the pay is only 65 cents per delivery and you get too keep all tips, so that might not work out to be enought for the wear and tear on my car, but i will work it for awhile and see how i make out on this. I have also been working construction for this other guy Rob, and io am working my ass off for him too. Last week i had to rip a whoel driveway in the sun and install a few counters in this Motel out here in the Cape. Tomorrow we are painting the place,, and that will be a full days work to paint all 16 units in the motel. Damn i am goingto be working 2 jobs and going to school, so that will kick my ass even more, but i will at least be able to make all my bills by myself so i dont need to rely on other people... (mainly tim)... speaking of Tim, he still isent working, hasent even made an effort to find work, al lhe does now is just sit at home and either play GTA on the playstaion or chat on the internet to all his hoes. he acually meet a girl off line who he has been hanging out with alot lately. i asked him if they are getting serious or anything but he wont tell me. but anyways, now that i have these two jobs i can finailly aford to get rid of him.  I started school again last week, i decided to stay with the MNE program, not sure why but i think i still made the right choice. school isent going to bad so farm this material seems to be a little more understandable then last terms. so we'll see how it goes.  I had an awsome 4th of july lastnight, i went over to my sisters party and we had tons of food, tons of drinks (plus jello shots which i consumed most of those) and fireworks, lotsa fireworks :) we shot them off from 6 till a little past 10... we had atleast 300 shells between all of us. i lit most of them off and only had one blow up on the ground. the night before Tim and I went to jamie's part on saturday night and ended up staying there untill 4:30 amand had to drive all the way back from north ft. myers.  I was going to go out to a movie with brandy tonight but i had to go into training for my new job so i guess she went to go see spiderman with her brother-in-law, thats one i wanted to go see so maybe i'll end up going to see it myself or if she wants to go see it again someday.

Well as you all can notice, i am starting over on my blog, i wanted to clear all my old entrees cause it just reminded me of a life that will never be again and the way things used to be. I admit the last few entrees were not very happy entrees.  I have been going throught alot the past few months and I really dont know where i am going in life anymore. I am done with college for this term as of saturday and i get a whole week off thill i hav eto go back again, wich I am still not sure if i do want to go back, I dont know, I just dont think i am cut out for this whole college thing, I tried it once when i lived back in Washington but that dident last very long, maybe it was because i got addicted to drugs and dropped out because i had to go to rehab. I have troubles retaining things in my head, i have to read it over and over again four times and still i dont retain it all. First term in school wasent al lthat bad cause i had someoen to work with on my A+ stuff and college success was a joke class anyways. I know this mayt seem really negative, but i honestly dont see myself getting all that farin the IT field becaue of al lthe other compitition there is out there seeking the same positions as I am seeking, more qualified individuals. With my roommate situation he is playing me money now which is a good thing cause i realyl needed it to pay off some bills and he has been working ful time too, which is ironic casue i am out of a job now, but anyways he is jsut getting very annoying and i am starting to get pissed off at hime for things like when he comes into my room when i am gone to the movies or school and watches my TV and it just seems like things start to dispaer or get fucked up when i am gone.. .Hmmm i wounder why,, alot of the times it happen when his crack head freind Andy from down the street come over. I jusy hide my shit really good now and i wish i could put a lock on my door to keep them out but the only bathroom in the apt. is in my room. On the briter side of things the apt down from me is opening up soon so maybe, just maybe tim could move into there, dont get my wrong, i like having a roommate but this one just gets annoying, and i think all my friends dont wantto come her anymore becasue of him. but anyways..... I need to find a job, real quick, like on Monday or tuesday, I put in an application at Time warner cable for a CSR tech, good benifite if i work ther ei could get free cable TV and Cable internet, so that will save me 50 bucks on my internet bil la month alone. I hav ejust been looking alot for jobs online at monster.com and all of those other sites.